I'm freaking out!

[Raziaar]

LOL... okay, well sort of anyways.

Have you guys ever had the surreal feeling that you're dead and the world around you is fabricated to torture you?

I'm having that feeling right now. Late at night before I go to bed, I've had that feeling quite often. I would have no idea what brings these paranoid thoughts to mind.

Right now for instance(and earlier today plus days previous), everything I see on TV is almost a reference to death or hell, playing on my still well rooted beliefs of the Christian religion(don't know if I can ever fully toss them aside).

I'm flipping channels and I see: Evil Dead 2, Hellraiser Inferno, Faust: Love of the Damned, The Devil's Rejects, Hell's Crossroads, Underworld, The Omen, Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest, Shackles. I believe earlier in the day and regularly in the past week or so I've seen History Channel's "Hell: The Devil's Domain".

There are many more too, that my mind is associating with the effect of having died either explicitly by their descriptions or implicitly by how I interpret them.

The thought that I mete out my existence in this incredibly frustrating and disappointing life simply as eternal punishment brought on by the fact that I'm dead and what is around me is simply fabricated, continues to pervade my mind.

I've come to a variety of conclusions.

1. I'm dead, and what I detailed above is true. I'm being punished.
2. We as Modern Society have an incredibly perverse fascination with death and hell.
3. I'm presently one severely paranoid mother****er who needs to get his head examined.
3a. This was brought on by some sort of accidental consumption of a hallucinogen.
4. I've just been awake too long and have allowed my imagination to paint this picture across my mind.

:O

 

[Vegeta897]

Option 4.

 

[cheddarrr]

i know exactly what your saying... and yes everything can be percieved how you've mentioned it if you take the time to examine it.
i dont really know what to tell you except welcome to being aware.... cause it only gets worse if you concentrate on it.
dont freak out just accept it

i hope this makes some sort of sense since you know what im talking about..

 

[Jintor]

This stuff happens, man. Today, for example, my thoughts remained rooted on a single instance of something or the other and then I keeled over and lay on the ground for half an hour. I knew I was on the ground, I knew that I had other stuff to do but I just couldn't be stuffed to get up and move. > <

Anyway if your life is a dream sit back and enjoy the ride.

 

[Uriel]

I kind of feel more normal.

.....kinda

 

[cheddarrr]

ive had times where ive been listening to music after i went to a really fkin haunted place.. and every single song had somthing to do with death and i have 90gigs of music on my playlist. so i settled for some techno eventually.. this stuff is out there i just try to not look at it anymore

 

[Bad^Hat]

Option 5: Turn off the ****ing television.

These little coincidences happen all the time. For me it's mostly times or combinations of numbers on clocks, CD players, or anything with a digital display. I started thinking I had some weird form of electronic ESP while back.

Also, idunno about anyone else, but I don't really like the idea that I'm a figment of some artificial hell created in the mind of a festive boogying bovine.

 

[Raziaar]

Option 5: Turn off the ****ing television.

These little coincidences happen all the time. For me it's mostly times or combinations of numbers on clocks, CD players, or anything with a digital display. I started thinking I had some weird form of electronic ESP while back.

Also, idunno about anyone else, but I don't really like the idea that I'm a figment of some artificial hell created in the mind of a festive boogying bovine.

The clock coincidence happens to me all the time. Although it's not just with clocks, but numbers too. And the number and time that ALWAYS comes up is 4:20. I often see it as many as 6 times a day. Either I happen to coincidentally at the clock and it is 4:20, or the number 420 shows up without anything else in combination(like, not as part of a larger number).

The number drives me nuts. And the fact that it drives me nuts has nothing to do with the drug connotations, and the times I see it almost never have to do with those connotations.

 

[Tagaziel]

Ignore everything said, you are really dead. We are all your hallucination, which kinda sucks, but it's awesome to torment you.

Now turn on channel 21.

 

[Raziaar]

Ignore everything said, you are really dead. We are all your hallucination, which kinda sucks, but it's awesome to torment you.

Now turn on channel 21.

OH ****ING HELL! It's PAID PROGRAMMING.

/commits suicide.

Oh shit, back where I started.

Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

 

[Sulkdodds]

Option 2, but with the words 'modern society' removed.

I've felt like this a lot, but it's because you're all bastards.

 

[Lucid]

Well, here's another reason why there's all of these 'horror' movies and documentaries.

It's October. Which means Halloween. Which means scary movies/specials/documentaries/etc will invade the television for a better part of the month.

 

[soulslicer]

Option 3. I'm presently one severely paranoid mother****er who needs to get his head examined.

Youre just really lucky to have observed all that. besides, it was all just on tv..not any other situation or medium..

 

[Raziaar]

Well, here's another reason why there's all of these 'horror' movies and documentaries.

It's October. Which means Halloween. Which means scary movies/specials/documentaries/etc will invade the television for a better part of the month.

I didn't even think of that. Wow.

Though I have been having this feeling many times over the past many weeks.

 

[[Dragoon]]

The clock coincidence happens to me all the time. Although it's not just with clocks, but numbers too. And the number and time that ALWAYS comes up is 4:20. I often see it as many as 6 times a day. Either I happen to coincidentally at the clock and it is 4:20, or the number 420 shows up without anything else in combination(like, not as part of a larger number).

The number drives me nuts. And the fact that it drives me nuts has nothing to do with the drug connotations, and the times I see it almost never have to do with those connotations.

I get the same thing. I think it's not that we see those specific numbers more often, it's that when we DO see them they register more strongly than other numbers (which you probably see just as often) do.

Mine is 117, by the way.

 

[Remus]

4 8 15 16 23 42

Options 3 or 4

Also, how do I know you're not a figment of my immagination eh? :|

 

[Sulkdodds]

Also, how do I know you're not a figment of my immagination eh? :|

 

[Bad^Hat]

The clock coincidence happens to me all the time. Although it's not just with clocks, but numbers too. And the number and time that ALWAYS comes up is 4:20. I often see it as many as 6 times a day. Either I happen to coincidentally at the clock and it is 4:20, or the number 420 shows up without anything else in combination(like, not as part of a larger number).

11:11 here.

But in my case, that number actually has a meaning to me besides just turning up all the time, so I've decided it has to be concious on some level.

Also, I think I've started mentally pre-empting it somehow, as I've actually been seeing 11:10 more recently.