4 Year Retrospectus

[ComradeBadger]

It's certainly a wierd feeling thinking back to the person I was 4 years ago, when I first joined this forum..

I didn't think much of myself - in fact was pretty close to self-loathing, was in 'love' with my best girl mate at the time (t'was unrequited, well I'll never know, cos I never acted on it), didn't think I'd amount to much, and was basically desperately unhappy.

Flash-Forward 4 years

I think very very highly of myself and my numerous talents, have a wonderful girlfriend - and am starting to make my mark on the world. I'm happy. I see a bright future for myself.



How about the rest of you.. how have your lives changed over the years?

 

[Higlac]

I discovered PC games.

 

[Qonfused]

I don't really remember myself that far ago. A few years doesn't seem like much, but I don't remember me. I do know my musical tastes have developed thanks to many on these forums. I've also developed my point of views, not so much on these forums but through normal mediums.

 

[NeptuneUK]

- No worries.

+4 years

- Stuff's a bit shit at mo.

 

[Tollbooth Willie]

I remember when I first joined I was just a hyperactive and mental kid. Since then, I've become less of a dipshit (though I don't like to show it). I want to you guys for turning me into a monster. I could make a nun's head explode with a single sentence.

 

[Qonfused]

I remember when I first joined I was just a hyperactive and mental kid. Since then, I've become less of a dipshit (though I don't like to show it). I want to you guys for turning me into a monster. I could make a nun's head explode with a single sentence.

Signatures are supposed to be less than four lines you ignorant dolt.

 

[Tollbooth Willie]

Stop using unacceptable colors in nature you ass block.

 

[Qonfused]

But it's fun.

 

[CptStern]

things are good, I've had a daughter since joining and my son went from a baby in diapers to a toddler about to start kindergarden in sept. He's even started to want to play driving games on my xbox (wipes tear from eye) Just sold my house and bought a new one in a great little community in a high demand area ..I dont look forward to the move or the tons of money I'll spend to make it happen.

 

[The Brick]

I have the idea that I got a lot smarter in the past years. I have a very materialistic view of the world and I'm mentally indestructible. I've matured a lot lately. I'm better at assessing situations. I can easily overcome stress, frustration, anxiety, worries, etc.. It's incredible how much control I have over myself lately. It's as if I reached a new level of self awareness. I don't think I'll change much in my life from now on. Things all look very clear.

Also my English improved from bad to awesome. My errors are mostly typos. I still get stuck on 'what was that word for that again?!' sometimes though.

 

[Terminator]

I've become a lot more confident, i have goals in life now and i've changed physically.

And the main thing my forum ego is more like my real life ego now.

 

[Bad^Hat]

How to answer this without moping up the thread too much... hmmm.....

Well, atleast it's slightly less depressing to look at my past than it is to look at my future. High five!

 

[CyberPitz]

-----4 years ago-----

I hated myself. Saw no point in life, and really didn't mind death. Girls don't find me attractive in any way, shape, or form!

---------NOW----------

Same, sadly

 

[TCfromBN]

-4 years ago-

life was good

-now-

life isn't as good

 

[Tollbooth Willie]

-----4 years ago-----

I hated myself. Saw no point in life, and really didn't mind death. Girls don't find me attractive in any way, shape, or form!

---------NOW----------

Same, sadly

Kill yourself.

 

[Cole]

-Became more open minded...
-Got Skinny
-Ton of confidence
-More Attractive
-More Social

But most of that had nothing to do this forum.

I hated myself. Saw no point in life, and really didn't mind death. Girls don't find me attractive in any way, shape, or form!

-Don't dress in black.
-Don't cut yourself.
-Have a girl who is social give you tips on clothing
-Run. A lot. All the time.
-Love your body.
-No Soda, No McDonalds or other fast food. No Caffine. No Coffee. No Energy Drinks. Lots of milk/water.(If you have any of these a lot it will improve confidence and self discipline, and improve body figure).
-Find something you really want that's in your grasp and willingly give this up(do it multiple times)(This is to build self confidence and self discipline quickly).
-Pay attention in school.
-Don't do drugs.
-Every day think this to yourself when you get up and before you go to bed. It doesn't matter how your day went. You might be going to jail the next day.

It's A Great Day To Be Alive​

trust me, do all that and you will be happy. It's not as hard as it seems. Once you do start to do it and get in the habit of it, you will love yourself.

 

[Naudian]

...how have your lives changed over the years?

Short version: Not enough.

 

[AmishSlayer]

4 years ago:

About to graduate high school... completely care-free... hung out with good friends all the time. I was looking forward to going to Grand Forks in the fall for college. I was Tubbs Mahoney (made up nickname for my former chubby-self I made up 7 seconds ago). I knew what I wanted to do in life but was too afraid to face it. I was afraid of people not liking me and overall I was quite the wuss.

Today:

I can't stand Grand Forks anymore. I've lost ~50 lbs. (in the last 3 months). I've finally come to face and began to follow my dream. I'm starting to prepare for it even though my parents want me to just get a desk job. I've become more independent. Now I don't care if I offend somebody. I have become somewhat principled. I refuse to take part in things that annoy me or disgust me (such as Facebook, myspace, MTV, political correctness, catering to people's over-sensitivity, etc). I look forward to moving back to my hometown this August...but I dread having to live with my parents again for a few months.

Man, time has flown.

 

[Stigmata]

4 years ago:

Short, thin, weak, unpopular, clingy, socially awkward, over-sensitive, huge nerd, unfunny, intelligent yet a slacker, few real friends.

Now:

Still short, still thin, not as weak as before, not popular but not unliked, less clingy, less socially awkward, less over-sensitive, still a huge nerd, shit tons funnier than before, less of a slacker, more actual friends, and a girlfriend \o/

But aside from my girlfriend, I still feel wholly unsatisfied with my life.

 

[Tollbooth Willie]

Seriosuly though..

Then:

Unenthusiastic, short, didn't know jack shit about the Internets, didn't know how to talk to girls, couldn't fight, anti social, very intolerant of assholes, never really cared for others and just someone people didn't like.

Now:

I be a titan over my mother, now I'm your worst nightmare (bananas), got a really sweet girl that makes me happy, nobody ****s with me anymore, being social is something I can do, still can't stand assholes, and I'm now blacker than I am white.

 

[Jintor]

Then: me.

Now: Me, but with wild mood swings.

 

[PvtRyan]

Not quite sure, but I'm confident I would hate the me from 4 years ago and would have an uncontrollable urge to punch him in the face.

 

[Sam]

Not much has changed really, I notice the change more in people around me. If anything I'm a bit less mature than I was back then.

Woo \o/

 

[Evo]

So much has changed....will post properly later!

 

[Baal]

The changes...oh god so many.

The main one I'd have to say, is that I learned video games that don't end and are addictive in nature, are very, very bad.

Counter-Strike and World of Warcraft, for example.

I still have a few months to go for my 4 year anniversery for this place though

18/5/03 was the first time I heard about HL2 though!

 

[baron insig]

Then 100% nerd Games all day,

Now - Started running/excercise - contemplate the healthyness of food - Go out - Social interaction i enjoy and im good at - Somehow im good with girls all of a sudden,

And i just spent a third of my pay cheque on clothes.

Going to uni, have a direction in life now, still slacking a bit but its hard to get into the routine. Have a steady job - consistently getting recognised for doing my job well.

 

[lePobz]

4 years ago ... I was a fresher. Now i've graduated. Win!

 

[MiccyNarc]

Short, thin, weak, unpopular, clingy, socially awkward, over-sensitive, huge nerd, unfunny, intelligent yet a slacker, few real friends.

Same here. Now I'm basically the complete opposite of everything on that list.

 

[Shippi]

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[Unfocused]

I think that, among other things, I changed my visual image for the better, gained more confidence.

Girls don't find me attractive in any way, shape, or form!

Doesn't getting laid contradict your statement?

 

[Gray Fox]

-----4 years ago-----

I hated myself. Saw no point in life, and really didn't mind death. Girls don't find me attractive in any way, shape, or form!

---------NOW----------

Same, sadly

Then how come you have all those great sex stories.

 

[Qonfused]

4 years ago:

Short, thin, weak, unpopular, clingy, socially awkward, over-sensitive, huge nerd, unfunny, intelligent yet a slacker, few real friends.

Now:

Still short, still thin, not as weak as before, not popular but not unliked, less clingy, less socially awkward, less over-sensitive, still a huge nerd, shit tons funnier than before, less of a slacker, more actual friends, and a girlfriend \o/

But aside from my girlfriend, I still feel wholly unsatisfied with my life.

Come to the LAN and you will be fulfilled!

 

[The Monkey]

When I joined I was about to start high school. I will gradutate from it in less than a month. The time I spend there din't turn out nearly as great as I would've hoped for, and it feels like I've thrown away a great part of my youth in that place.

 

[Reginald]

4 year ago me would have been bullied by now me. Old me would never believe how good my life is or how social I can be with members of both sex. Old me would have been afraid of the amount of alcohol, smoking, drugs, sex and parties my life involves now.

Jeez, that makes me sound like an asshole.

 

[MiccyNarc]

4 year ago me would have been bullied by now me.

Same here. Weird.

 

[JNightshade]

In my freshman year of highschool, our teachers had us write letters to ourselves. Last friday, we got them back. Since it's so perfectly on-topic, I'll type mine up so you can witness just how much of a tool I was back then



Dear future me,
I can't wait to see what I think of Freshman Me when I open my letter to myself in three years. Right now, I'm into rock music (Hendrix, Incubus, Dispatch, HIM [ROFL], Rage Against the Machine, etc), as I've always been, and I love skateboarding, girls (although they don't love me), singing/making/listening to music, good books, being liberal (about everything), and my friends and family. Family life is hard, with my little brother being such a little bitch and all, but I survive. My nonexistent sex life is really rather depressing, but hopefully I'll change that. The country is in shit, with a needless war going on, an assf*ck president, and all, but hopefully Bush won't get reelected [I wish :S]. If he does, we're seriously f*cked. Not to mention the fact that they're talking about reinstating the draft. F*ck. If they do, my parents have already vowed that we'll get the hell out of here. I'm singing in a band, although we haven't rehearsed yet. It's good music though, classic rock. I'm getting a new computer soon, thank god, so I'll be able to play Half-Life 2 when it comes out. Still straightedge, although it's harder these days [hahaha, that lasted long ]. I love my friends, and have finally moved into the group I've wanted to be in, in the position I want to be in. Shallow, but these kids are awesome. Well, not much else to say, nothing worth saying, so I guess it's bye for now.


Good luck with my life,
Jeff (previous me)

 

[Baal]

Where to begin...

After two consecutive summers of doing very little of anything besides a couple of soccer games per week, I gained a lot of weight without even realizing it.

I was probably about 5'4 or 5'5 going into first year of high school, and under normal circumstances probably weighed 120 or so, but I think I weighed 150 or 155, which is what I weigh now at 5'9. And when I say not even realizing it, I truly do mean it. I didn't know I had gained it until I lost it and people started to notice. It was a really strange experience for me. I wasn't a giant by any means, but it was still a significant weight gain.

Four years ago I was still playing Counter-Strike and eagerly awaiting the supposed imminent release of Half-Life 2. Soon after I would move onto World of Warcraft, and rack up a serious amount of play time, which basically can sum up my High School life that wasn't spent in school, sleeping or brief times playing sports.

I was a such a disaster in High School...christ. I mean, I got along with a lot of people, but I just didn't seem to care about anything at all, besides playing Warcraft at least.

Anyways, I've stopped playing all video games at the moment, and I only plan to play single player games that actually have an ending from now on. But I can't just blame video games for my being a disaster in every possible way...as I say, I just didn't care about anything.

I'm much more aware of how I treat people now, especially family.

 

[CptStern]

some of you spend too much time playing games ..live first, game later ...i dont think I touched video games from my late teens to late 20's ..too busy living to bother with video games ..now that I have everthing mapped out I still cant bring myself to play more than an hour a day ..there's just so many other things to do ...dont waste your time you'll never get it back

 

[brink's]

Was that before you racked up 25 thousand posts on a forum

Yea, i wasted an entire year on counterstrike( 2004)..i played it pretty much non stop and i know i missed out on some pretty good times with my non gamer friends....what a ****ing waste of time. Not making that mistake again. I think i made up for it in my last year of highschool. but, lately ive been doing dick all...i really need to get my shit together...tomorrow.

 

[BabyHeadCrab]

Thanks for making thread badger :E . Everything has changed, basically, but I don't have time to post at great length atm (massive post when I can properly gather my thoughts).

But it's funny to look back and realize I have been on this forum for 4 years :O kind of incredible.

I didn't think much of myself - in fact was pretty close to self-loathing, was in 'love' with my best girl mate at the time (t'was unrequited, well I'll never know, cos I never acted on it), didn't think I'd amount to much, and was basically desperately unhappy.

Pretty much the story of my High School life as well, fortunately I'm about to get away from it all.

In my freshman year of highschool, our teachers had us write letters to ourselves. Last friday, we got them back. Since it's so perfectly on-topic, I'll type mine up so you can witness just how much of a tool I was back then

We did the same thing, I can't be arsed to type mine up though. Was pretty funny I just ranted about how I'd rather be playing video games than be at school every day. And how I wanted to make a career out of my hobbies and some other stuff.