what the hell is going on?

[WaterMelon34]

I saw a picture of a woman - who I will not name - a few weeks ago and I didn't think anything of her but how she had a nice ass. I looked back a few minutes later and I couldn't stop staring at her face, and then I just felt a sudden rush of this feeling that I've never felt before. It's not a good feeling...It keeps me up at night and sometimes I just curl up and feel like dieing. I guess you could say that the sight of her face devastates me. I don't think there's anything that I don't like about her, maybe I just don't like that she has something that I don't...but I don't know what that is.

I look at that picture every day now, but everytime I do I cry. And all I can think of is how beautiful she is. Is it love? Depression? Jealousy? I feel like there might be something wrong with me, like I have a mental problem. And it scares me so much that I spend time infront of a mirror staring at myself and saying that I'm fine.

I tried telling my friends about it, but the closest thing to actual help that I got was "you'll get over it". Like **** I'll get over it, I'm getting ****ing eaten alive by a god damn PICTURE. I even tried talking to my priest about it at confession. He told me everyone feels jealous about other people's characteristics and he gave me some shitty analogy about someone who was good at math. No way in hell I'm telling my parents... They mock me when I don't feel like dealing with their crap.

I think it might be depression, which would be understandable. But I don't want it to be depression. A psychologist would spoon feed me bullshit on how what I'm experiencing is depression and that it's a chemical imbalance or whatever. I'd kill myself if I knew that I was just another part of the monotony of the world and that I will get over this and go back to my usual life. I just hope something good will come of this. Maybe something lifechanging.

And all I can think about is how beautiful she is... :stare:

 

[madog]

Look into the thread about a weird thing happening one night. There you will find my solution to your problem. You may or may not like it, but it has helped me to become a more efficient being. I do hope you resolve this issue.

 

[WaterMelon34]

You want me to masturbate? ROFL....Unless you mean that I should go after her. That is a problem too I guess... She's married, she's older, she speaks another language.

 

[madog]

You want me to masturbate? ROFL....

No, that in fact can only make you desire the real thing with this girl even more, further hurting you. My solution is not one used by any psychologist but one i perfected myself. If you eradicate this feeling all together you will become stronger in my mind and your crying will cease. Forget about anything to do with love, romanticism, sex, or anything of the sort. You will feel empty at first but eventually get used to it and be satisfied. Keep yourself busy with goals and objectives to fulfill and stay determined. You will be left with a will stronger than steel and laugh at how pathetic that other human you once were was.

 

[evil^milk]

you don't know her face, and all that her face implies.

 

[WaterMelon34]

I don't want sex. I don't even want to get close to her really. I just want to know her. No romance.
On a side note... I guess she just represents what I miss most about people. She looks so honorable, so mesmerizing... Anyway, I have some really ambitious goals in life, but they all revolve around her for some reason now.

 

[evil^milk]

that's pretty much it. hell, you put some things into perspective. what goals in life are you talking about?

 

[madog]

I see... Well you can only learn from your own experience. It is best to forget her since she is out of your reach. To console yourself, just think of her as a friend and feel good for her since she is happy.

^Not my normal methods. I doubt this will work, but I do not have much advice for your situation. Something similar to this but on a deeper scale was the reason I destroyed my former self.

 

[WaterMelon34]

Bah. Well, I want to go to a nice university and get a degree in computer sciences. Maybe work at some large company for a few years and then try to make my own game company and hopefully crank out some good shit.

Madog I don't want to forget her I'll try that though.

 

[madog]

Bah. Well, I want to go to a nice university and get a degree in computer sciences. Maybe work at some large company for a few years and then try to make my own game company and hopefully crank out some good shit.

Madog I don't want to forget her I'll try that though.

That is good, stay determined. Fuel your thoughts toward achieving in any other areas. I am sorry if my method saddens you. You do not need to forget about her. It is your feelings that need to be left behind. It is hard, I know it is, but if you succeed you will not have such problems again. I'm not entirely sure overall though, it has only been two years that I have been like this.

 

[evil^milk]

*ignore*

 

[WaterMelon34]

Thanks a bunch guys. I've gotten through another day

 

[RakuraiTenjin]

Find more pictures of her and start a collection.

Begin taking pictures of her in day to day activities but from a safe distance if she lives in your area.

 

[Krynn72]

Find more pictures of her and start a collection.

Begin taking pictures of her in day to day activities but from a safe distance if she lives in your area.

LOL. Or you could post the pic and everyone here can make fun of it and then you loose interest. Whichever one works.


But seriously now...
Would it be possible at all to actually meet her? By that I simply mean, "by chance" you walk by her, say "Hi" and strike a conversation of small talk for a single minute and then be on your way. Perhaps once you do, your desire for her will go away (or at least dwindle a bit), since you have met her which seems to be what you want.

 

[WaterMelon34]

No, it's not possible. I wanted to e-mail her or something but that would be stupid. Ah damn it I feel like shit again. Today people are so shallow all they think about is how to get a new boy/girlfriend or how to pull attention to themselves. It's so bad. This girl isn't like that. Just by noticing her status you realize how much hard work she put into her life... I can't help but admire her.

 

[Darkwolf]

Find more pictures of her and start a collection.

Begin taking pictures of her in day to day activities but from a safe distance if she lives in your area.

That would be stalking Rakurai... it's a damn good idea to!

 

[ZeeM]

Don't know if it was already posted, but this thread is worthless without pics.

 

[Parrot of doom]

You're getting horny over a picture, not a person. An image, not a reality.

 

[Angry Lawyer]

This reminds me of when I worked in retail. There was this time when I was on the collection desk, working away normally, when suddenly this really average looking girl came up to the desk.

But there was something really unnatural about her. Something that made me feel sick to my stomach, like she was draining my essence. I felt physically feint.

Then she left the store. As soon as she stopped looking at me, I suddenly felt okay. Weirdest thing ever.

-Angry Lawyer

 

[Murray_H]

This may result in the death of someone

 

[ComradeBadger]

No, that in fact can only make you desire the real thing with this girl even more, further hurting you. My solution is not one used by any psychologist but one i perfected myself. If you eradicate this feeling all together you will become stronger in my mind and your crying will cease. Forget about anything to do with love, romanticism, sex, or anything of the sort. You will feel empty at first but eventually get used to it and be satisfied. Keep yourself busy with goals and objectives to fulfill and stay determined. You will be left with a will stronger than steel and laugh at how pathetic that other human you once were was.

You're 16, stop acting like some kind of guru. Your self-righteous bollocks grates on me.



And Watermelon.. just get over it, you're building up this person behind the image into something they simply aren't.

 

[Angry Lawyer]

He's 16 and can't get laid, and therefore creates a facade of "Oh yeah, you say I can't get it? THat's because I don't WANT it!"

-Angry Lawyer

 

[Gorgon]

Don't know if it was already posted, but this thread is worthless without pics.

Shut the **** Up,

yeah it happend to me too. I worked out every day at my College-Gym, and this girl (she's a gym instructor), I never seen a hot girl like her before. She's got the hottest Curvy Mother Fooking Body in the world (maybe)...She looks like one of those girls on (Page3 Sun)...

anyway, she made me jerk off everyday, hey don't get me wrong (I was 17 years old 5 years ago). After 3 months I couldn't resist, and I ASKED her for if she could have sex with me; she slapped me in the face, and called up the fooking Student office, they got me bannd from the Gym and the College for a period of 2 months......Meh!!

FOOKING BITCH ;(

 

[Murray_H]

anyway, she made me jerk off everyday, hey don't get me wrong (I was 17 years old 5 years ago). After 3 months I couldn't resist, and I ASKED her for if she could have sex with me; she slapped me in the face, and called up the fooking Student office, they got me bannd from the Gym and the College for a period of 2 months......Meh!!

FOOKING BITCH ;(

You seriously asked her? Did you just come out with it?

 

[Hectic Glenn]

After 3 months I couldn't resist, and I ASKED her for if she could have sex with me; she slapped me in the face, and called up the fooking Student office, they got me bannd from the Gym and the College for a period of 2 months......Meh!!

FOOKING BITCH ;(

Heh...right ok...so you actually asked her? I mean just asking her out for a drink would have odd, but right upfront for sex is ridiculous (and hilarious i must add). Why on earth did you do that!? I think we all get crushes on teachers at some point, but never ask them for sex! Dear god Gorgon!?

 

[Yuri]

Pfft, you write that whole thing out and don't share the pictures?

C- for effort.



Holy shit, Gorgon!

F for PSYCHOPATHIC BEHAVIOR!

 

[Tr0n]

You guys scare me.

 

[Gorgon]

Yes I did. I really got very engaged with her sexy appearance....

 

[Yuri]

There is something terribly wrong with you.

I am terrified now. ;(

 

[Gorgon]

There is something terribly wrong with you.

I am terrified now. ;(

nothing is wrong with me you idiot!!!.... hate the hormones not the player

 

[Murray_H]

Yes I did. I really got very engaged with her sexy appearance....

Was it like

"Hey"

"Hi there"

"WILL YOU HAVE SEX WITH ME?"

:frown:

 

[Yuri]

The fact that you just referred to yourself as a player makes me even more terrified.

You approached an instructor who was far older than you, and you said "Secks?" You didn't even say it as a crude joke, it seems you were serious.

I will never be the same





Murray, I don't think I've ever laughed harder than that after reading a post.

 

[Gorgon]

You approached an instructor who was far older than you, and you said "Secks?" You didn't even say it as a crude joke, it seems you were serious.

no!, at the time of the incident, she's looked 25 years old... ah well fook it ;(

edit: murray, LOL,

 

[Yuri]

25 year olds don't generally date 17 year olds.

Especially freaky, disturbing, blunt and psychopathic ones.

 

[Angry Lawyer]

However, in my personal experience, 27 year olds can be convinced to date 20 year olds

-Angry Lawyer

 

[Pi Mu Rho]

In my experience, 31-year-olds can be persuaded to date 21-year-olds

 

[CptStern]

murray that was hilarious :thumbs:

in my experience 23 year olds can be convinced to date 29 year olds

 

[Angry Lawyer]

In my experience, 31-year-olds can be persuaded to date 21-year-olds

Damnit, always one step ahead D:

-Angry Lawyer

 

[Murray_H]

In my experience, desperate people do desperate things.

*ducks*

 

[Asknoone]

Shut the **** Up,

yeah it happend to me too. I worked out every day at my College-Gym, and this girl (she's a gym instructor), I never seen a hot girl like her before. She's got the hottest Curvy Mother Fooking Body in the world (maybe)...She looks like one of those girls on (Page3 Sun)...

anyway, she made me jerk off everyday, hey don't get me wrong (I was 17 years old 5 years ago). After 3 months I couldn't resist, and I ASKED her for if she could have sex with me; she slapped me in the face, and called up the fooking Student office, they got me bannd from the Gym and the College for a period of 2 months......Meh!!

FOOKING BITCH ;(

I'm lost for words.